Determined to stay clean this time for years


The last time I gambled was on April 11, 2006. Tomorrow will be 6 months. The longest I went without gambling prior to this was 8 months; I relapsed hard after that. Prior to the 8 months, it was a 2-4 weeks, 2-3 months of abstinence then I was back in action again.

What is the difference this time? I'm more determined this time to stay with my goal of being gamble free for the next 80 years. I will live to be 110+. Smile

I have identified some of my triggers. They include having extra money, associating with friends/people who gamble, thinking about the old gambling days, and stress. Yes, extra money and stress are two big triggers for me. I have learned to deal with stress by going to the gym and letting things bounce off me instead of harboring ill-feelings toward people. As for the extra money, I have set a goal of leaving any extra money I have in the bank. If I have a roof over my head, good food, good company, what more do I want out of life?

I've got to keep things simple. Let go of the past. Get rid of negative people in my life. Stop worrying what people are thinking or doing. Treat myself with respect and dignity. Treat everyone I meet with respect and dignity. Keep things simple. It has worked so far.

For those who have been using this site for the last two years like I have (www.gamblinghelper.com), my other username was Honesty. If we've communicated before in the old site, please drop a line and say hello.

I've wasted 15 years of my life gambling. It it something that will not just disappear overnight. I have to work at it. Examine thoughts, words and behavior each and every day. Try to reduce as much stress in my life as possible.

It's something that's always in progress.

Until my next blog entry...

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Congratulations Bach
Submitted by Karen on Tue, 2006-10-10 14:03.

Hi Bach,

6 Months is along time and you do seem very positive. I was at it for 2 Years and I did so much damage I can't imagine making it thru 15 years. I have been listening to a tape program on Self Esteem and reading books. I read the one you recommended the Automatic Millionaire. It all seems to be helping. I think even though I slipped, all of this has really helped. Usually when I slip, I do alot more damage and feel horrible for days. I would have never left with $20.00 in my pocket. I hope you had a nice Holiday, I forgot you were from Cananda. Why did I think you were from Hawaii?

Karen

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Karen: I think it was
Submitted by Bach on Tue, 2006-10-10 16:21.

Karen: I think it was Scotty555 who recommended that book to you. He's from Hawaii. My root is in Canada.

I find that I'm confident when I just take things one day at a time. I've been clean for 6 months and it wasn't an accident. I had to work at it. My goal is to go for the rest of my life without gambling or doing drugs or anything that is considered self-destructive.

Talk to you later.

Bach.

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Congratulations! Six
Submitted by denisec on Wed, 2006-10-11 08:18.

Congratulations! Six months is a long time and it looks like you are really trying to change your life and that is really what it's about. I had to laugh when you talked about extra money though because only gamblers have extra money; everyone else has savings. Smirk.

Denise C

3 years 7 months and 2 days without a bet