Friday


KikiT
Good Morning Everyone! Aloha Scotty!

I'm one week away from being six months gamble-free. It hasn't been easy. I have to work on my recovery everyday, remind myself why I can't use gambling as a means to cope with life's problems.

It has been difficult for me and I've come close to slipping several times but I remember that last trip home, dreading the moment of seeing my husband and sick to death of what I had done, again.

We can't continually beat ourselves up for things in the past, things we cannot change. We can only hope for the courage to make this day a good day for ourselves. Today I am not going to gamble. Kiki

guy60

Posted: 23 Jun 2006 06:21 am Post subject:
Hi Inky, Scotty, Kikit, Ann and everyone else. I'm glad to say" "I didn't gamble yesterday, I haven't gamble today and I have no plans to gamble tomorrow." Never tire of saying that! Just wanted to say Hi to everyone. Tommorow it will be 2 weeks since I placed a bet. Yesterday my wife and I went to Block Island, RI for the day. It was great but one of the exits I had to use was the exit for the casino. As soon as I saw that sign that old feeling came back. I doesn't take much to bring back the desire to gamble. I guess it is always going to be there in the back of my mind and I will just have to take it ODAAT. Have a goodf day everyone!!!

moe11

Posted: 23 Jun 2006 06:13 pm Post subject: re
Hello all. I am trying to focus in on waking up tomorrow ( Sat ) feeling good about not going.

guy60

Posted: 24 Jun 2006 07:37 am Post subject:
Hi Inky, Scotty, Kikit, Ann and everyone else. I'm glad to say" "I didn't gamble yesterday, I haven't gamble today and I have no plans to gamble tomorrow." Never tire of saying that! Just wanted to say Hi to everyone. Well its been 2 weeks since I woke up and said "What the hell did I do last night????" I think that feeling is even worse than the ride home from the casino. Two weeks is such a short time but it feels so long ago since I gambled. Yesterday was a sobering experience. I paid last months bills--over 1500 in gambling !!!!!!! Thats why I'm here! I am a compulsive gambler and will be for the rest of my life. I realize I should go to Gamblers Anonymous meeting but I just can't at this point. I'm hoping to stay gambling free by posting as much as possible and learning from everybody else's post. Today would have been a perfect day to feed my addiction. My wife is away for the day and it is supposed to rain all day. What a perfect day to get rid of money I don't have.
I'm glad to say that I have filled up my day with work and frequent visits to this site to keep me going ODAAT. Thanks everyone