God saved me...


Well I cant say I've been good...but I can say that I'm done for good..

Bare w/me on this one...

I thought I could handle it...i started out slow...won...put it away...

Tapped my foot...paced around....couldnt let it just sit...went back lost it..you know the routine...I lost alot..i cried....i begged god to help me to send me a sign..nothing nothing...

well let me tell it came and it came w/a vengeance...

I only have a problem w/one slot machine...has red trucks on it..when you win .. the wheels screech and it sounds so cool..in the three years I've played..i never hit the big won, 5 RED TRUCKS equivelant to aboue 250,000....i hit the 5 green trucks the 4 yellow ones...i hit the bonus round...biggest win i ever got was 11,000.00 that happened most recently, and i did take it out but of course..used most of it again...

heres my rock bottom, heres my end....

I was driving w/my newborn daugher..7 mths old she was asleep in the backseat..

i was at a light waiting to turn, the turn signal went to red..and i heard a beep

I proceeded to go....and a truck and car BOTH blew the red light and headed straight for me...BY THE GRACE OF GOD I MISSED BY ONE INCH...

I pulled over in hysteria...daughter still sleeping I went straight to church and cried my eyes out...i still havent fully recovered....

I promised god the WORLD for saving our lives....

Ironic thing..have you picked up on it yet? Out of the two vehicles...ONE WAS A RED TRUCK...GOD FINALLY LET ME WIN THE JACKPOT.....my daughters life....he could not have spelled it out any clearer for me.....i went back to church that sunday and just sat and cried....he let me go...he fought the devil for me and let me go.....i heed his warning...we are done w/this ......

thanks for listening...


Hi Stacey,When did that

Hi Stacey,

When did that happen? That was a pretty close call.

You seem to have an infinity for red trucks. :-)

I have had many thoughts about self-destruction during my bottoms. Sometimes I wonder how I could think the way I did when I was gambling. I remember how I used to write checks to myself or depsosit empty envelopes into the ATMs. My bank would call me the next day. One time a banker said to me over the phone, "Why did you do that? You can't write checks to yourself. Cash deposits have to have money in the envelopes."

Well, duhhh...I was gambling and I needed the money to gamble. :-)

I hope things are looking up for you.

Clean since April 11, 2006.


thanks

It happened 10 days ago.....im feeling better now..but still shaky and im fine w/that feeling .. it keeps me in control and sane....

you did those things huh...yeah...i know ..it all sounds so crazy now...so unbelievable.....im glad we made it out alive....

thanks again for revealing that...


Stacey, I got tears in my

Stacey, I got tears in my eyes and goose bumps reading this post. Miracles do indeed happen in strange ways, we only need to believe.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. Bottom life, our lives and that of those that we love are priceless. If we have our loved ones, friends and good health, we have indeed HIT the JACKPOT!

Anna