How Im doing....


So lets see hows it going....Im ok....I really am....I dont think about it, or I do, but I just dont allow myself to get all worked up...i remember thinking about it and that would spiral me or make me talk myself into it..or convince myself im ok to gamble again...i read my old posts..and i really believed i was cured....really truly..and thats ok...but......

What i noticed about taking breaks from gambling (or quitting which it starts out to be)...is that the gambling seems like YEARS away...in other words, once you are so intwined in to gambling and thinking about it 24/7 and playing everyday...it only takes about 2 weeks for it to feel foreign to me.......which is where the trouble starts...at least for me...the brain is some kind of a tease....i feel im normal...the crazy thoughts are gone and i feel i can do it again....there has to be something to that....i guess i needed that to happen over and over again for me to out wit my own self....

I am my own worst enemy....but at least now i have a little more knowledge about myself....to conquer myself.....amazing...

 

WHERE IS EVERYBODY......hope all is well..GOD SPEED

 

 


Hello Staceyp How are you?

Hello Staceyp

How are you? It's good to hear from you. I can relate to where you're coming. That is the reason I remind myself it's one day at a time no matter how many days I have under my belt.

It's when I get comfortable and think that I no longer have a problem is when I replase. I believe it is a lifelong process.

I have read many stories on this site and each one has a part of me in it. I'm wondering where everyone else went. I hope they didn't relapse and that's the reason they're not here. Relapse is part of the process so please drop by and say hello if you have relapsed. We've all been there.

Talk to you soon.