Hello fellow compulsive gamblers


I thought I posted something earlier, but I guess I forgot to hit post....

I haven't had much of a chance to get on line this weekend but I caught up these evening. A lot has happened this weekend, none of it entailed gambling!! I have made it through 8 days of no gambling, got a second job to start paying back my debts and managed to rescue my massage table from one of my haunts with a friend in tow so I was not tempted to get anywhere near the machines!!

My big lesson this week is asking for help. I sincerely finally asked this week and to my pleasant suprise, received more than I expected. I had forgotten that when you ask for help and mean it, you get it. I also forgot that I cannot do this alone.

Hello to all the new people on the website, Princess, thanks for sharing your story and congrats on your 2 years!! Shelly, Zoe TJ and all others that have helped me through these last week, hope to hear from you soon and maybe catch a chat on line.

Anyone looking to chat and having urges, if no one is here check out the CG Hub.....they have meetings every night and a chat room that is hardly ever empty.

Hope everyone is peaceful and gamble free!!

 

Sunday February 20, 2005
09:28 PM EST

 

Your welcome, I'm glad it helped. Thanks for the congratulations too. I just know that one day you will be able to say the same thing. You are doing great not going out for 8 days now. I remember how hard it was when I first started out. Not to say that you will, but if you do go out again, don't be too hard on yourself. It took me almost five years to get the two that I have now. Just pick yourself back up and get some support. You have taken a terrific first step in admitting that it has become a problem and seeking help. I can't say that the urges will go away completely but they do get fewer and farther between as you go along and are easier to resist because you remember tips that people have given you and your mind clears up as you get further away.

One thing that has helped me is I keep a letter to myself in my purse. It is about the bad times gambling so that when I'm thinking about going back out I can look back and see how miserable I was instead of just thinking about the good times. I wouldn't suggest you do that right now since you are so close to the last time you gambled because you need to give yourself some time to start healing from the hurt that I'm sure there is right now.

Also at my second meeting somebody mentioned a fact about painters. He was talking about how if an artist paints something that they don't like, they don't throw away the canvas. Instead they paint over it and brush stroke by brush stroke the make the ugly painting into something beautiful. Our gambling lives are the old painting and the work that we are doing in recovery are the paint strokes. Slowly but surely we paint over the old picture and make a picture that looks a lot better. If you ever need somebody to talk to, feel free to email me anytime.
Marcia

Good job, Crazylady.... 8 days is awesome!!! I wanted to also thank you for steering me to CG Hub, it is a great site and I managed a quick chat one day I was there. Time seems to be at a premium these days.....don't know how I found time to gamble before!
Keep it up, one day at a time and those 8 days will turn really fast into 30.... Smile
Also thanks Princess for the painting analogy...what a wonderful way of looking at it. I know my colors these past few months have certainly been brighter Big Grin Hope I have put the blacks and greys away for good lol
Take care Smile
Shelley